This article explores and attempts to explain why so many people are becoming unwell and it’s looking in the places that science has traditionally found difficult to explore and other times it contains information that’s just too difficult for them to swallow. I’ve incorporated some of my own experiences from Kundalini and going through spiritual crisis to help explain my reasoning and rational behind what I see as a spiritual sickness of the inner aspects of self.
Mainstream western medicine traditionally focuses most of it’s healing efforts on physical aspects like diet, exercise, pharmaceutical drugs, physical therapies and if necessary surgical intervention, however it is woefully lacking when it comes to understanding the spiritual dimensions or the subtle aspects of self that comprise the human being. Did you know for example, that in addition to the mind, we also operate with a soul and a consciousness?
Science can’t get to grips with the idea of a real soul as it’s a whole other paradigm and it can’t explain the existence of consciousness, however spirituality can. These inner aspects of self can take on board harmful influences and ways of being that lead some of to become conditioned with things that can drastically bring down our physical, mental and emotional health and well-being. Certain psychologists and therapists are able to work with some of these inner aspects, but there is still a big rift in both knowledge, learning and solutions or knowing whom to seek out or who to turn to if not through our modern health systems.
Initially when I look at people to see their level of well being, I study the eyes, and I’ve noticed a number of things in different people, but there are similarities and common causes between some of them. Some people for example appear to have dull and watery eyes that remain appearing persistently sad, this is often an indication of an inner being problem that is affecting their emotions and s changes their emotional expression. I’ve termed this as a type of soul sickness as themes and threads run much deeper than merely mind or emotions.
I have also noticed that certain people whom are absolutely dejected and look lost or cut off have had their inner experience changed to what religion might refer to as Hell, or another way to look at this is a temporary place of punishment or cause of personal suffering where our inner being exists, even as we go about our day to day lives, but most often only reserved for quite serious forms of transgression or acts of sin.
It took me a number of spiritual emergencies or crisis episodes for me to come to terms with the idea there is even such a thing as an inner world unseen by our physical eyes, but often as dreams through which our consciousness sees our inner happenings. My crisis periods were often accompanied by bad ambient energy hanging around me and in the air, at times there were dark or sinister sounding inner voices that only I could hear as they were experienced in my mind and at times this made me very nervous and even paranoid about going out, because I was never certain when a voice was going to appear. Eventually I lost my fear of these voices and I was able to confront and study them and realised that they belong to different spirit entities, many of them which were black in colour when seen by clairvoyance or spiritual sight and they did not sound very pleasant.
Eventually everything climaxed and I experienced what is known as a full blown “spiritual crisis”, which might be termed as a psychotic-breakdown by some psychiatrists today, however this was an intense manic episode that was eventually diagnosed as a psychosis. I recall at the end as I was in the hospital waiting area with a security guard watching over the door, something really burning and stinging near my pelvic floor, it felt like something was spinning or whizzing around near my pelvis, very similar to a tornado vortex or whirlpool. I had already studied aspects of spirituality like chakras and I knew this was the location of the root chakra and it seemed that something horrible was coming out of it, a thick negative energy. In the end I was so concerned I might become manic again and trigger another episode that it brought about a short stay at a mental health hospital and whilst I remained there mostly to recover, it took me some time afterwards to process and come to terms with what I had experienced, I nearly managed to convince myself it was all an illusion or hallucination, but I eventually figured out there are real causes and effects and that an inner experience of the spirit or soul and it wasn’t just in my imagination.
Anti-psychotics and tranquillisers such as Diazapam helped me to sleep or stay a bit more mentally grounded, but mostly they made me feel groggy, numb and unaware. On the strongest of these drugs I was barely able to communicate to anyone, but after proving I was not a threat to myself or anyone else I was eventually released and allowed to return home. The drugs were interfering with metabolism and making me fat and I didn’t feel like doing anything anymore, let alone exercising, they weren’t really helping me at all by this point and I was still struggled to sleep at night suffering with chronic insomnia, so eventually I decided to limit them and then stop taking them altogether.
In addition to bad mood, energy and emotions I often found I had a migraine or a headache that wouldn’t go away, if I placed my attention on the muscles in the scalp it would frequently play back to me or say “must suffer”, and I tried to work out why would I think this to myself? I eventually realised these were not so much my thoughts, but thoughts or information presented to me by ‘someone’ or ‘something’ and it was as if it was being spoken to me as if coming from an external source, this was another strong indicator that something was wrong.
As I began to realise that these voices were also part of an inner experience of spirit, I began to study and observe my own eyes much more closely and it seemed like each eye was telling a different story. One always seemed pure and there other seemed to intuitively hint at something sinister lurking within me at that moment, something that sources in spirit today tell me is called “evil eye” and they impress the importance of “healing the sinister eye”. I realised that many of us are carrying around impure energies that are sitting within our body for various reasons and they to are also causing a lot of mental thoughts to be vocalised and heard, these inner body energies are connected to our mind and they appear to be a form of karma and that they can literally intelligently transform the shape and appearance of body to reflect various outcomes.
When these energies dissolve or eventually disappear, so to does the face and eyes begin to heal and revert back to a healthier and more full appearance. Christianity might refer to these energies as a demonic energy or a form of spiritual impurity, but most indigenous tribal or Shamanic cultures would also understand and widely recognise as an evil spirit.
This information and experience with my eyes and face began to form the basis of a technique I call Ego Balancing and it looks in part at studying the changes to the face and the symmetry of each side of the face and eyes in order to be able to identify spiritual issues of relating to an unhealed ego. I furthermore believe this now to be part of a legitimate form of intuitive science and field of study relating to karma that in the future many people whom are concerned with psycho-spiritual healthcare are going to be studying or wanting to learn about in order to determine what is probably wrong with someone else as therapist or wrong with ourselves in order to grow or heal spiritually.
Only when these harmful psychic energies are removed, cleared and exorcised does the mental disturbance connected to disturbing dreams and inner voices disappear. Psychiatry, certain doctors and scientists have managed to mistakenly dupe or make most of us believe these inner experiences are hallucinations to be ignored, however religion and spirituality understand them quite well… these particularly energies very often correspond to harmful things done to others, to ourselves and impure ways of being, sometimes acted out in mind and sometimes they may relate to a physical choices, action or behaviours.
Drugs might help temporarily settle disturbances to body chemistry associated with adrenaline rushes and the fight or flight mechanism, but they aren’t going to cure you of a spiritual sickness. As mentioned, many of us during these sorts of times are confronting inwardly some very unpleasant things and they are not hallucinations, we experience them as a real and our body reacts to them, often making us feel scared, panic or unsafe and can even lead to developing post traumatic stress disorder.
The most valuable tools were prayer and sustained meditation, but I later had the courage to do exorcism to remove the bad energies and found this was much quicker and more effective than just meditation. At times I even had a lot of assistance from the other side from positive spiritual guides and angels that would present as sparks or orbs of different coloured light. I eventually found that as long as I worked hard during my week and then meditated in the evenings the effects of migraines or headaches would eventually subside and feel a bit better and tension would release bit by bit until they stopped or disappeared. I also found muscular constriction and tension blockages would release from various places, including my arms, chest, back and legs, but the heart-wall I would learn is a very significant location as it relates to our emotional wellness and ability to think in a healthy, positive and balanced way also. Eventually this would lead to something called an ego-death and my consciousness began to drift away from self-identification as the body and my mind and become the self that knows itself.
I managed to see what these psychic energies look like first hand, some look like streaky columns of energy, like ink in water, but they could seemingly fly and they seem to move with a simple intelligence of their own, almost like a jellyfish. When I first cleared one out of my body it left through my solar plexus as a chakra opened its petals and it disappeared into the ground. When these energies were gone, I felt lighter, the energy was now much more higher in vibration and I felt emotionally content and stable again, the dark voices had all but gone and I felt like I had reclaimed my body, mind and emotions again. My consciousness began to grow with my meditations and spiritual practice and during the evening as I was drifting off to sleep, my new found self-awareness would allow me to perceive different voices speaking over the top of me, they seemed to be concerned with progress I was making and sometimes they were assisting in making plans, but they were different from the normal thoughts I would perceive in my mind that relate to other people.
This whole story of events plays out as something called Ascension or an inner journey from darkness to light and with it eventually comes an end for the need for much of human suffering as well as realisations why many of these things take place and their true purpose, which is in part the evolution of soul and consciousness, to create the foundations for establishing a being that has longevity beyond the physical flesh and body. The causes of many of these problems can be connected to a seemingly simple, yet quite complex set of spiritual teachings called sin and a code of morality relating to transgression designed to not create karma for oneself in body, mind or spirit.